Up, up and away!

So as I am sitting here at my current job, listening to the drilling and re-construction of the office... I ponder to think...

I found out about a week ago that I got accepted to join the Republic Airways. Which means... I GOT THE JOB! haha I start training for the flight attendant position a week from today and I am having mixed emotions about it. I am supper excited to have this opportunity of a lifetime don't get me wrong, but I am also kinda sad right now. I feel like I have supporters on my side during this endeavor, but I also feel like I have people that are starting to be distant and not really care. Almost like they are mad I am achieving my dream and they aren't. Which hurts. Aren't you supposed to be loving and supportive towards your friends no matter what??? I breaks my heart a little to know that I have 'friends' like that. It's like I sit there and cry cuz I am sad that I am leaving them, but they just sit there, not even noticing that I am sad or upset. and then they distance them selves from me. Like they are just SO busy!

I said a prayer last night... My prayer did consist of my trip and that I am hoping I make it through training. but it mainly consisted of my friends. I prayed for all my friends. and each prayer was different, but still it was for them. Sometimes I wonder if they do they same?

I'm not trying to sound selfish or act all 'high and mighty'... I just am writing down all the thoughts that have been running through my head for the past couple days. and I'm not going to apologize cuz they are just thoughts. Every time I think of something like that though, I ask God to take it away. But it still kind of hurts, ya know...